Palmistry Update

I visited the palmister and he didn't tell me a word of what I wanted to hear. Not even a word. God, I regret going. It wasn't anything I expected and it was ten times worse than something like that should be like. No, I can't live like this...oh my god. 

Oh The Olympians, if I ever - ever did anything nice to you, please, please, help me get out of the mess I am in. I'll even find a cow or a sheep to sacrifice for you, Apollo - or Artemis. Ares? Zeus? Poseidon? Is anyone here to help? PLEASE? Can anyone help....

*breathe in, breathe out* I shouldn't take this to heart, but the palmister hardly even had to look at my palm before he declared my horrible future. He told me that I would have a very hard future ahead of me and that I would marry my sister and kill my father. How I react to the fact will depend on how I make the decision - either I can lose my sister and father forever, or I'll know they'll have my back for a lifetime. Who on earth could survive or think even remotely straight if they were told about this horrible fact. 

This is insane - I go from being the only child, the only offspring from some bitch who let me go, to someone who has a long-lost sister who just so happens to meet in the same place, and get together with each other. I can't accept that. That's absolutely crazy! I'm still trying to find my mother, but how the hell can I find her if I have absolutely no idea where to even start looking! And now I've got a father and a sister to find too?! 

I SHOULDN'T BLOODY BELIEVE THIS KIND OF THING. I can't believe it! I don't! I'm a fucking scientist! I'm supposed to be studying science and believing in science, not magical things like reading palms and relying on such readings. I shouldn't be such an idiot, and yet...somehow, I am. How? Why can't I convince myself otherwise? I should be able to. Why can't I ever? 

I feel almost unstable thinking about the fact that someone thought that, that was what I was destined to do. I can't even place my feelings in words, I'lll...you know, I don't know what I'll do, but whatever I need isn't on this kind of thing...bye.